Day 8 and really struggling

The depression and lack of energy is no joke and I’m incredibly tempted to go and get 1/2 tea to feel like myself again. I have no motivation to take down my Christmas tree, have turned down invitations to go out with friends, and laid in bed all weekend watching tv. It’s 19F here and gloomy. When/how do I get any dopamine back? I started kratom due to depression and anxiety and just want to feel hopeful about life again