30 days clean and free

So, here I am, a month free from my crippling addiction. I’m feeling more and more like me each day now, sure there are times of low energy and mood, but that’s life.

Day 1-7 Physical WD kicked my arse, I didn’t eat for like 4 days, didn’t sleep for 5 and had crippling anxiety. I wanted to cave so badly, but I never did. Day 6 I could start to get out and about again and this helped my mind. A lot!

Days 7-14 Had some really tough days, but also had some really good ones. I kind of retrained my mindset during these days, if I thought my about the Negatives of what I was doing, I’d start to feel crap. If I concentrated on the positives, my mood changed for the better, so this is what I begin to do. I found a spiritual pull during this time and started to practice gratitude.

Days 14-21 Some rough times during this week BUT they did not last, was more a passing thought that sometimes lingered. I found my love for the gym and music in particular came back strong. My sex drive also returned the high levels it was pre Kratom. One of my favourite benefits 😁

Days 21-now I feel like me. I legit don’t have cravings. I’ve buried these with the help of a friend who quit cocaine. My addiction is a beast that lives inside me. It will always live with me, I have to control it. I actively tell the beast every day how worthless it is and how it’s locked in a cage and thrown in a dark corner and left to die. It may sound extreme, but it’s something that really helps me. As mentioned I have periods of low mood/energy. But mindset switch helps with mood and caffeine helps with energy zaps! My sleep is fantastic, I train at 4am so come 8/9pm I’m ready for bed. And I sleep like a baby, I don’t wake up 4 times a night anymore, if I do, I roll over and go straight back to sleep

I will never ever look back from here on out. If anyone is starting their journey, or researching and comes across this, please know - it gets so much better as time goes on Please stay as positive as you can, it’s rough, but very doable.