Feeling like a horrible first time mom who deprived her baby of sleep.

I had my baby 9 weeks ago and up until last week she would just scream nonstop, she was fed, changed, burped, not gassy. However she was reflux-y, and even though I’d carry her all day every day, she still cried. After the first couple weeks her wake windows were becoming HOURRRS long (around 4-7 weeks). We couldn’t get her to soothe, or rest during the day. I’m talking she maybe had ONE nap during daylight hours. (Thankfully she has always slept well at night -except for feedings-)

It’s only the last week or so that I have discovered how to effectively PUT my baby to sleep, and I feel sick to my stomach that my own ignorance to her wake windows and inability to rock her to sleep in a way that worked for her, caused her so much sleep deprivation and tears in those days.

Someone please tell me she will be okay from not sleeping much and I haven’t caused her any lasting harm. I’m distraught.