I don't like being ISTP.

Sorry for the incoming rant. Hi all. I'm just another ISTP girl that was pretty stressed about... this should not be as stressful as it sounds, my god. But recently I feel like I think extremely differently it makes ME an alien amidst humans, and I hate it.

A little more context:

  • I work full time, but unlike the stereotypes I don't work with my hands.
  • While my close circle is overwhelmingly Ti-dom users, on daily basis I talk the most with xNFP or xNFJ people. One of them are very well versed in reading people, they told me I'm a total ISTP and after some research the claim backs up.
  • I create stories as a hobby, and I most often brainstorm this with the xNFP folks.

Look. I know people around me think I'm cool-headed, isn't prone to panicking, solution/action heavy, and my 'disinterest in workplace gossip made me a good person'. Your usual ISTP r/mbti talk. But I feel it's especially debilitating as woman member of society, and despite it not showing I actually gave a fuck about that.

And here's to my rant, which I made it in bullet points for easier read:

  • I never am too aware of people thinking differently than I do, I have committed how many communication fumbles with the xNFx folks? Which mostly they laughed and go all good-naturedly "oh i know that's just your Ti-dom talking" but it's just... made me think how I was extremely dumb because I didn't consider implications on what not to say. Not to mention it's deeply unnerving to get read on something you did not expect.
  • I feel like I never know what to do with this one ENFP person whom I talked daily with. They talk a lot, overshares a whole LOT (i don't know what to do with these knowledge, we talk much but we're not That close?), switch topics a lot which barely interests me, which I tried my best to be engaged with. They also often suddenly talks about a bad thing that happened to them, which I tried my best to console (awkwardly) because I truly felt bad, and then the topics nonchalantly change. I feel the incompatibility, yet I don't want to accept that because they are very good natured...
  • Now that I'm aware about how people should work after knowing MBTI. I can't understand how people works and it makes creating stories so much frustrating! It was something I enjoyed a lot, but after a failed story serialization I realized that my characters are too boring and has no chemistry because it doesn't come to me naturally, so that's something I need to work on. Except creating a character is such a slog, I liked making stories about funny misunderstandings or fantasy people doing daily life, there are people who liked it, but this makes me feel like it's not enough to create an engaging story. This is such a difficult puzzle to figure out!!
  • I am aware that everyone writes a story only they can write, but I can't shake that one offhanded comment from a xNFP person that 1) I like fun instead of heavy emotional stories the xNFx likes and 2) my story may not appeal to them but their friend likes it. It's literally! Just comments! It shouldn't imply they think I'm dumb for liking battle explosions instead of emotionally heavy read? It shouldn't feel this attacking?! Maybe because I think of their opinion too highly, that comment broke my spirit and I feel so inadequate as a person.

These are so exhausting and frustrating to the point I start withdrawing from my friend group, and I don't want that. Any advice is welcome, please--or if you don't have any, I'd still highly appreciate if you relate to this.