Some afterthoughts and story from Ke Jie on his first stream after the LG Cup Final

"Well first and foremost I'm alive." "The LG Cup was very important to me, it's my shot at the 9th world title, I deleted all my favourite games and social media for months to practice for it and I played well and won the first game." "I would be the first person in China to obtain their 9th world trophy." "Since the 22nd I've been in nightmares, as if walking in hell. I couldn't eat properly, couldn't sleep well, can't believe what just happened in front of my eye. I don't really want to mention any of this, what happened is a mental scar for me, everytime I close my eye at night my brain keep replying those scenes."

"The first thing that kept replaying itself is when my opponent reported me, while both myself and the coach was protesting against the rule, my opponent was chatting with a ref casually with smiles, while we were in the middle of protesting. At that moment I heard something shatter, I don't know if it was me, or the spirit of the game just cracked." "I don't understand Korean to know what they were saying, they're probably saying how dumb I was." "I am indeed dumb, if I could spare some attention from the board to the outside I wouldn't be in this situation, why did I insist on being so devoted to the board?" "I've trained for so long, never expected something out of the board like this. Maybe I'm just over thinking and they're just making a bitter laugh out of pity."

"When I first got punished for the violation for 2 points I told the judges I read the rule and it never mentioned the time when I need to place them in the lid, it just says they have to be in the lid." "He said something so terrifying, I don't know the judge's name but he said to me he has the right to jurisdiction and as my coach was calling for the associations help he told me that if I dragged out time on purpose I would rule you a loss right now." "I can't comprehend how he could even say that, all 3 pauses in both games was done when my opponent was thinking and making their move, how could I be the one dragging on and wasting time, and why does the judge need to humiliate and insult like this."

"I feel personally under attacked in the Arena, many pair of eyes looking at me. I don't know where to even put my body scared to violate another rule." "Today I would've liked to thank the support of everyone who believed me." "If what I experienced during the 2 days were eternal dread, you guys voicing out your support is the eternal bliss, I sincerely thank everyone who believed me."

Ke Jie get up and bow on the stream.

"Thank you all for saving me from my dread, for providing me with courage and grace."

"I didn't lose, the turth is my opponent never won a single game." "These few days after returning to China I keep repeating to myself a quote from a movie -- Never to compromise."

"Ke Jie will never compromise. Never." (He repeated this a few times and turned his chair back to cry then turning back."

"I've deleted all the games for this LG Cup but I've downloaded all back. The test is over, and I did well, really well, time to award myself."

Then he proceeded to launch TFT and play on stream.