I just need to cuddle a girl

Like the title says i just need to cuddle a girl, i dont want to be held and comforted i want to hold a girl in my arms and make her feel safe and special and loved, thats all that i need. And before you think its stupid ive wanted this for so long, there are nights where it has eaten me alive with just wanting that, ive almost broken down and started bawling my eyes out over it more times than i can remember.