I bought a gun and I’m questioning myself.
It has only been 13 days and so much has changed already for the worse. I feel completely at a loss and powerless against this tide of insanity.
I needed to do something, anything, to feel like I had some way to defend myself against it all so I went to a sporting goods store and bought a Beretta 9mm Px4 Storm Compact Carry 2.
I don’t even want to touch it. Like it will somehow change ME but I feel like I am already changing because of this administration and the emboldened supporters.
I know I need a class, I will schedule one, I guess I just needed to know it is not crazy for me to feel like I need to protect myself.
It was also really weird to buy it. No outward Trump paraphernalia but ALL men. While I was making the purchase, I kept thinking “this is exactly why I want this because I’m surrounded by people who are also buying these.”
Im not a large person and feeling uncomfortable around men is nothing new but now everything feels more dark and sinister.
Is anyone else prepping this way? Buying a gun(s)? Am I letting it all get to me too much?
I also went a little wild and got a 14 day supply of mountain house meals. That was more expensive than the gun!
God, I hate this timeline! Thanks for reading. I’ll continue to read posts here and learn.
The Beretta under consideration…