Starting to worry about reporting.

Hello again!

I apologize if this is bordering on comfort-seeking or if it is just straight up comfort-seeking, but I dont want to bother my freind with this.

I promise this post isent ment to be attenchion-seeking, even if it seems to be. I'm just kind of scared.

As stated in my other posts, im reporting my mom tommrow, I'm packing my backpack with some comfort plushies, my Journal, my tablet for art, a couple cloths, some books and body wash and shampoo/conditioner. (Whatever I can pack in my bag)

Aswell as writing a note to hand to my guidance counselor as the report, since I don't trust myself to remember everything and/or not cry while talking.

I'm starting to second-think all this. Not because I'm feeling guilty, but im worried they won't take my report, that it won't be enough.

My mom is medically abusive, but im not dying. My teeth hurt and some are rotting, but I still have teeth, even if 2 are partially broken off or loose.

I have somewhat blurry vision and failed the eye test, but I can still read, even if my head hurts sometimes since I can't see since things are kind of blurry.

I get hurt, I get hit and cut, I've bled at the hands of my mom several times, i have a scar from a gash my mom made but I've never gotten any bones broken.

I've had a tooth cracked because my mom threw my tablet at my teeth, but the tablet still works and the tooth only hurts if I mess with it.

I never feel safe in my house, I constently have to be on high alert, but what kid dosent?

I'm mocked constantly, I don't have any self esteem and I'm a paranoid and anixety-ridden mess but that isent that bad.

My moms sprayed chemicals in my eyes as punishment, but my eyes still work, I'm not blind.

My moms threatened to kill me, she's chased me with a knife or held it up to me, She's slashed me with it. My moms begged me to kill myself but she hasn't ever stabbed me.

I've self-harmed from the stress of being in this household, but most teenagers self-harm, I'm not particularly worse-off because of it.

Aswell as other things I'm not comforable sharing on a public post.

But I just, I don't know. I don't feel like I deserve to report her, if that makes sense? I don't love this women, I resent her actually, I know what shes doing is abusive. But I dont know if my situation deserves intervention? Mabye I'm just overthinking this all, mabye it isent that bad.

I know kids have been threw so much worst. I know kids have had to deal with alcoholic parents, drug addicts, much more neglectful or abusive parents, I know kids have gone threw truly horrible things, things I don't think I'm allowed to say without this post getting taken down.

I don't know if my situations bad enough. I'm just scared. I'm so fucking godamn scared.