Coping mechanism suddenly causing emotional flashbacks?

I’ve been a writer for years. I really got going on it when I was 15 and have written so much. I love it to my core and it’s my favorite thing to do. It’s been a huge coping mechanism for me and an outlet for my pain.

But suddenly it’s like I can’t write. Anytime I sit down at that laptop and try to make myself I get anxious. It is crushing levels of anxiety. Like if I’m forced into a triggering situation. Actually writing this about the issue in this post is causing major anxiety. What’s happening to me? I don’t understand. I love being a writer and this makes me so upset. There’s so much happening in my life right now and it’s like I don’t have an outlet anymore because of this.