How long did it take you

To feel better after the end ? I'm the one who ended it and wanted out for most of it , but rather than just feeling relief , all I do is ruminate and think about it and feel bad .

Which I don't have the luxury of doing because I have a much more important thing to put my energies into, namely my mothers health decline and I'll be her caretaker when she's discharged from the rehabilitation facility .

The relationship ended just in time for that , and I'm hoping that even though it's a challenge to shift my whole focus onto caretaking my mom , maybe it will have the added benefit of taking me out of this loop and rut.

For all I know , wearing gloves and changing and caring for my mom may be relaxing compared to caretaking a borderline.

At least she'll be nice about it all.