Why is he crying now?

Now, after three years of treating me like shit, now that I’ve finally met someone new, now be’s crying and saying all the right things, saying that it was all his fault, that he didn’t know how to love but now that’s be reading self help books, be sees where he went wrong and wants to be with me.

I can’t believe he can really fake cry like that- he should get an Oscar bc I know it’s all lies. Does he know it’s lies?

He didn’t want me when we were together, he just doesn’t want me to be with anyone else. He wants me on the shelf so when he’s ready to play, I’m there. No one else can play with his toys.

It’s awful. I’m blocking him again bc I hate how much power he still has over me, but not enough power for me to go back this time. It feels like a ship that has sailed. I’m not too far from shore but I’m far enough away that him just calling isn’t enough for me to turn the shit around. But if he kept on, I might would which is why I have to stop the calls now before I mess up what I have with this new guy who gives me hope for a future for the first time in years.