I'm ashamed of my kink

So I'm pretty ashamed of a kink I have and want to know if I should be. I have a mommy kink and would love to call someone mommy in bed and be dominated by them. I'm a pretty submissive guy and I'm beginning to finally explore the sexual side of myself without guilt. But this kink makes me feel bad.

I have a very strained relationship with my mother. She's been verbally abusive and very mean towards me. I remember always wanting another mom instead of my own and being disappointed that I couldnt.

Maybe I'm only into this because of our terrible relationship. Which is gross right? I feel a little disgusting for it and don't know what to do or how to approach this.